The extraordinary 'WHY'

Why, we hear so much of it. Why do we hear so much of it?

Why is it that we always have a question to ask?

Why can't we simply take in the things? Why can't we understand just by looking? listening? by taste smell or touch?

Why is it that we are driven so much to ask question?

Why is it that we have to ask? can't they just give the answers by looking at us?

Why do they even have to answers? whay can't it be just another statement?

Why can't things stay the same?

Why is it that change is not always gud? or is it that just a perception?

Why can't we think of an answer ourself?

Why doesn't there always is an answer?

What is next?

What is it that we want?

What is the reason for anything? is there a reason for everything? (tough i act as it does and always try to 'figure out' there is always a contradiction in self, a doubt that lingers on..)

Why what?

Why why?

Why can't we ask how instead?

How it happened? how to make it happen again? how to stop it from happening ever again?

How will the future turn out?

hmmmm.. know this is on everyone's mind right now.

then it comes out again ... why can't we be sure of it?

why is ther always a choice?

why there isn't an obvious thing to do?

why can't we be sure of what to do?

like a king's son is supposed to take care of his father's kingdom, a business magnate's son has to shoulder the responsibility of his father's empire.

what are we supposed to do?

build an empire? conquer a kingdom? or just work our ass off in an IT company?

why is it that we always feel that grass is greener on the other side?

I was damn gud in bio shud i have been a doc? a biologist may be?

hey i am incredible at logic and analysis too does that make me a gud programmer?

I can argue like I am possessed and i can convince anybody, am i a candidate for a lawyer?

I have a fervor for justice shud I be an administrator?

I am a gud critique any takers for that?

I am sure most of us can come up with a plethora of traits, the question is which to choose?

why didn't the doc just stamp me on butt and predict what I would be gud at and stamp me with a label declaring my 'Destiny'?

atleast i would know what to do.

like some great mind once said - pursuit of happiness is a chase for a lifetime. but what is happiness? having more than enough to spend? a loving family? something to do, to occupy you always? or is it doing what you love all the time?

what to pursue? what will lead to all of these?

I am sure all of you have these on your mind, i just wrote it out for you. Its easy to advice others so may be trying to answer me will provide you with an answer!!!

ciao :)(

Hmm i am writing this right after my first blog, by changing subjects line a train changing lines in bangalore station, i forgot i start it, because i think i act totally differently at times, i don't know which of that is the true me, the things that i wanted to highlight was, i love going out, but i am that outgoing person, i hate being lazy, but i am probably a contender for the Snail title of shimoga,

its my town by the way, its where i live, where i have been living since i was five, all my schooling was done here, god damn, i even got my graduation here, i always wanted to go places, may be my work life will take me there, I am this moody extrovert always sulking kinda guy, i slip into depression like puck on ice, ad i bounce back into this hyperactive firecracker, i am this unpredictable thing, even i cant predict my behaviour somethimes, which irks me sooooo much, i would like to control my anger.....oh where am i going with this, this is sooo mind boggling, i have sooo much to tell, .....dkvgariugiuwegiuweiugfsdbvigb

next time, sorry for the interruption....&*%^#$*&

It seems i am not one person, i amaze myself when i do things that never thought of, to tell the trurth and see it straight i am an ordinary geek, who spends 10 hours a day sleeping and another 10 hours infront of PC, but my  heart tell me  I am not this  person, i always want to go out somewhere, like a daily visit to a nearby hill, it offers a wonderful view of the city, its usually calm. you know its wonderful todo that everyday, but not everday, cause after a couple of times i gert bored, i seldom have interest in something after experienceing it a few times.

So i am always in search of new thoings to do, so I am back in front of the same PC, looking for a new game to conquer, If i have not told you, adding to being a geek I am a gaming freak, i love adventure and fantasy game, my favorite being the diablo, if you havent played it i recomend you, its one of the best roleplaying games if you ask me.

I am done with that, the game is finished, what to od next?!!!!

well i never had that reading bug inside, i have never tried reading, so i wanted to try that, I love to try different, i seldom back down from an opputunity from doing a new thing, so I startd with "One night at a call center" by all means it was the worst ever book to start, though i have a liking for fiction, thats one comlete nonsense i had ever seen. I had seen a couple of harry potter movies by now, actually all 3, at that time, so i wanted to read the books now, all the books of the series. My friend was generous enough to lend me some, and i couldnt belive the size of the books!!! it was insane 700pages of english words doesnt seemed that much gud. well i finished the first book in one day, still i am amazed, being such a lazy person , i read all the books 6 of then within 18 days...!!!!!there is somethings i thought impossible ( including this damn long First blog i am writing now). now the bookworm was inside me, next i took up Dan brown books, gud goDD he writes some awesome books!!, but fate to have it, i then realised that I am an engineering student, and damn it!! Reading is also part of it, i mewan reading text books of sorts so that i can finish this off, have a degree and be able to find a lowly coding job, in this IT industry, don't you think i run ofcourse too often???

By the time exams were finished, books were all gone, again sitting infront of that same old PC doing god knows what, coming across new games, new thing, Orkut was totally happening, i had a lot of friends to keep up, but eventually another exam came, breaking that habit, now its all Mafia wars in facebook i don't know how long its going to last. I have my final year project demo on 22nd MAY ,thats 3 days from today, have to prepare for that now bbye. keep reading....

If you feel it was a total bakwass bullshit, gimme a break, its ma first attempt yo!!

PEACE.